I guess Father's Day is gonna be a day from now on for me to ask forgiveness. My dad wanted to motivate me to be a better man because the person I was did not live up to his standards. I failed. He left my mom, divorced her, besmirched her to my elder siblings, and lied. Then he died.
For many years I blamed him for my illness. I have been fighting to find my own niche... to be myself. I am not my father's son. I have an older brother to fill that role. I'm just a guy with issues. I don't pretend my shit is more serious than others or that I am more important. So, hey, dad, I forgive you. Can your ghost forgive me?
One of these days I'm gonna have my own legacy. Maybe not a child. But something worth more. “God's will, not ours be done!”